Comments on: What do you do when you just want to die? http://thejuxtapositioning.com/2009/11/18/what-do-you-do-when-you-just-want-to-die/ moving things around in my head Thu, 15 Dec 2011 16:40:30 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3 By: Ron http://thejuxtapositioning.com/2009/11/18/what-do-you-do-when-you-just-want-to-die/comment-page-1/#comment-2754 Ron Thu, 19 Nov 2009 04:53:57 +0000 http://thejuxtapositioning.com/?p=326#comment-2754 Respite? Yeah, at some level. To me, death as respite has always seemed like some external thing, some big "character" that will act for me if I ask. I only have to choose IT, and IT decides everything else in a profound and absolute way. And there’s my respite. But I inevitably remember the cool stuff here, like the fabulous trees, purring cats, and instant communication around the planet for anyone! And hot showers! (This is my first time here with hot showers everywhere, and they are so amazing!) Then I also recall that the lines may be long to get back and I think “Fuck it – I’m gonna hang out!” Respite? Yeah, at some level. To me, death as respite has always seemed like some external thing, some big “character” that will act for me if I ask. I only have to choose IT, and IT decides everything else in a profound and absolute way. And there’s my respite.

But I inevitably remember the cool stuff here, like the fabulous trees, purring cats, and instant communication around the planet for anyone! And hot showers! (This is my first time here with hot showers everywhere, and they are so amazing!) Then I also recall that the lines may be long to get back and I think “Fuck it – I’m gonna hang out!”

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